Memories of him were lodged in her mind, like bits of shrapnel. Sometimes one would spontaneously work its way to the surface, leaving her bleeding and pained. She wished her trauma would stay buried deep within. Reliving the pain again and again was asking too much of her broken, fragile heart.
The winding, dusty roads stretched out before her, as she stood wracked with indecision. It was fully dark and she would be expected at home. The familiar road beckoned with welcoming warmth and comfort, but the other road… She felt his heart calling through the trees, like a physical tether drawing them closer and closer.Continue reading “Roads”
Papa always told her she was powerful. “Watch, Nikki,” he said, pointing at the sky, “Stare at that cloud and wish it away… Keep staring. It will disappear.” “Papa! The cloud is breaking apart!! I did it, Papa. I did it!” “Yes, Little One, you did… And now you know how powerfulContinue reading “Finding Power”
“Heart’s Helpline. Yooooouuuuuu’vvvvveee got heart!” “Hi, Heart. This is Joel and I’m looking for love.” “Ok. So, Joel, why do you think you’re having trouble finding it?” “Well, I’m a little shy.” “Shy isn’t an answer, Joel, and frankly, doesn’t make sense, since you called a radio show.” “But I am.” “Ok. Let’s assume yourContinue reading “Heart’s Helpline”
I keep my self-hatred in a box, along with my biggest fears: rejection, expulsion and my complete detestability. Maybe someday I’ll stop opening the box… But apparently, today is not that day.
In a moment, I lived a lifetime. Our lifetime… All the things we did and all the things we were together. In a moment, I yearned for you, even as I held your hand. I needed you… But you were slipping away. In a moment, I prayed for mercy. I begged for your life. IContinue reading “Just a Moment’s Life”
He tipped his hat and winked at the clerk as he walked through the door. She nodded in return and gave him a genuine smile. It lit up her face and filled his heart with gladness. Once upon a time, the smile would have been a swoon and he might have asked her for aContinue reading “Love to Give”
There’s a deep place in my heart where we are forever frolicking on the wild shoreline. You are wearing the blue hat you bought at the beachside shop and your crooked smile catches my heart in my throat. I reach out to you, laughing and you pull me into your arms and into the waves.Continue reading “Ocean Wild”
Somewhere deep in my subconscious is a nagging doubt. When it rises, I fling it to the furthest corner of my mind, where it rots and festers. I don’t care. I’m well-versed in denial. “What are you thinking?” you ask, snuggling more deeply into my arms. “Nothing. Just… I don’t want this to end.” YouContinue reading “Being With You”